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Chapter 4 - The Astoria WalkupThe ride across the Triborough Bridge was conducted in near-silence.

Noah had fallen asleep in the back seat of the black town car, his head resting against my shoulder, clutching the brass caboose in his small fist. Ethan sat across from us in the spacious leather interior, staring out the window at the glittering skyline of Manhattan as we crossed into Queens.

When the car pulled up in front of our brick apartment building—the one with the flickering streetlamp and the chipped concrete steps—Ethan stepped out first, opening the door for us with a practiced, automatic grace.

“I’ve got him,” Ethan whispered, reaching into the back seat before I could protest.

He lifted Noah with a practiced ease that surprised me. Noah stirred slightly, nuzzling his face into the crook of Ethan’s neck—the exact same scent of cedarwood and amber I remembered from seven years ago—and went right back to sleep.

I unlocked the outer iron gate, pushed open the heavy front door, and led the way up the three flights of narrow, carpeted stairs. Every step creaked in the quiet night.

When I unlocked apartment 3B, the familiar warmth of our tiny home washed over me. The living room doubled as my home office, stacked with sketchpads, colored pencils, and a laptop open to an unfinished vector illustration for a children’s book. The kitchen was barely six feet wide, dominated by a small round table with two mismatched chairs.

Ethan carried Noah down the short hallway into the bedroom—my bedroom, where a single twin bed and a toddler bed sat side-by-side. He gently laid Noah down, kicked off the boy’s sneakers with clumsy care, and pulled the dinosaur quilt up to his chin.

He stood there in the dim light of the hallway for a long moment, looking at the posters of planets and cartoon animals taped to the walls.

When he walked back out into the living room, his expression had shifted from shock to a quiet, terrifying resolve.

“This is where you live,” he said softly, his eyes scanning the modest space.

“It’s clean, it’s safe, and I pay the rent on time every month,” I snapped, instantly defensive as I set my bag on the counter. “It’s not a penthouse, Ethan. But we built it ourselves.”

“Emma, I wasn't judging,” he said, holding up his hands in a placating gesture. He looked around the small kitchen, his gaze landing on the refrigerator covered in Noah’s finger paintings and grocery lists written in my handwriting. “I’m just... trying to process the fact that while I was flying private jets to corporate retreats in Geneva, you were up at three in the morning finishing client briefs so you could afford formula.”

“Your mother made sure I had no choice,” I said, leaning against the counter. “She cornered me at a Starbucks in Midtown three days after you proposed. She laid out a stack of documents. She told me you were up for partner at the firm, that the Blackwood name couldn't afford a scandal involving a girl whose father had declared bankruptcy, and that if I didn't walk away voluntarily, she would ruin your career before it even started.”

Ethan closed his eyes, his fists clenching at his sides. “And you believed her?”

“I loved you, Ethan!” I shouted, the volume echoing loudly in the small apartment. I lowered my voice instantly, glancing toward the hallway to make sure Noah hadn't stirred. “Of course I believed her! She had corporate letterhead, she had court filings, she had details about my father’s business that no one outside our family should have known. She made it look like staying with you was a loaded gun pointed directly at your head.”

Ethan walked over to the kitchen table, pulling out one of the mismatched chairs and sitting down heavily. He rested his elbows on his knees, burying his face in his hands.

“She controlled everything,” he muttered, his voice muffled. “Even after I graduated law school, she managed my apartment leases, my investments, my social calendar. I thought I broke free when I started my own firm. But I was just running on rails she laid out for me.”

“And Victoria?” I asked, crossing my arms over my chest. “Was Victoria part of her grand design, too?”

Ethan looked up. “Victoria’s father owns forty percent of the commercial real estate downtown. My mother engineered the merger of our companies six months ago. The engagement was announced before Victoria and I had even been on three proper dates.”

“How romantic,” I muttered dryly.

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Ethan stood up, taking a step toward me. The air in the kitchen suddenly felt very thin.

“I didn't love her, Emma,” he said quietly. “I haven't loved anyone since the night you walked out of my apartment on 86th Street.”

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